INTRODUCTION to MOI

I know I could have probably done this on my "ABOUT ME" but I figured this is where I can get into more detail and plus this is where I am now. The "about me" is a generalization of my essence as a whole. I'm not exactly sure where to start so I'll just put in stuff randomly. First off my apologize right off the bat for my poor grammar, run on sentences and bad spelling. Also for all the vulgar language. You'll learn that I have a potty mouth.

Despite my tendency for crudeness I have a strong belief in God but not religion. I was born Catholic but have not been a practicing one for a while. I'm half Filipino and part Irish, Scottish, Swedish and English. I'm the only daughter of my mother who was born and raised in the Phillipines and the third daughter of my father who was born and raised in San Antonio, Texas. I have two older half sisters. Through my fathers current wife I also sort of have a step adopted brother. I was born in Los Angeles, California but had lived in the Phillippines and Hawaii all by the time I was five. We then finally settled in Los Angeles again to be near my dad. My mother and I had been somewhat gypsy like except within the same community. My mother made sure I stayed in one school while we moved from one garage, room, hellhole to another. I did live with my dad and step mother for a year and a half during my sophmore and junior year in highschool in San Bruno, California. This is where I believe I blossomed as an individual and finally became comfortable with my own skin. I moved back home to graduate with my old friends and be with my mother for my last year. After highschool I decided I wasnt ready for college and just took on Photojournalism course in Pasadena city college. After a few months I decided it was time to spread my wings on my own. I decided to room in with my sister in San Bruno. Within four days of moving there I was already starting two jobs. That was the beginning of bouncing from one job to another. After over a year my mother was having financial difficulties so I packed my bags once again and moved back home to help her out. It got to be to expensive to live in L.A. when I was the one solely responsible for paying the bills. I had a bright idea of moving to San Antonio where at least I had my pops side of the family living there. Within three weeks we moved all our stuff with the help of my pop, sis and friends and drove to San Antonio, Texas. Now here we are four years later living in the nicest place I've ever lived in my life and me with a steady job that I've worked in for three years where it is slowly but surely sucking the life out of me. I occasionally attend classes at a private art school whenever I can fit it to my night auditor schedule and afford it. Eventually in two years I plan to finally move out on my own to New York City where I visited during my vacation and instantly fell in love with the city. Hopefully I can do this by the time I feel my mother is financially able to cope without me. I have never once lived on my own and I feel I need at least the experiance without my overly protective mother hovering over me.

My goal is to eventually finish school and get a degree in Photography and maybe minor in Russian history. And dispite the pitfalls and mistakes that have happened in my life I refuse to give up my dreams and goals no matter if doesnt fit my time table that I made when I was 12. I have learned to deal with the major and minor bumps in the road like everything in my life...as a lesson learn and character builder. Life is not truly lived if you take risks and go through changes. Like my sophmore English class when asked which would you rather have, a life that's like a roller coaster or the merry go round. I was amazed to see most of my peers choose the merry go round. I was the only one who chose the roller coaster. I felt then as I do now that without those many ups and downs you dont learn, change and grow. And to me that's not life...that's just existing. So here I am trying not to just exist and force myself sometimes out of complacency and try to experience new things. While I have these experiences and also contemplations about life and other things I will try to keep you abreast about it all.