BODY SHUTTING DOWN

I've been really exhausted lately. Not just because I havent had a day off since August 25. That was the last day I had any time for myself to have fun. My friend and I went to see La Boheme. Since then my days have consisted of working 8 hours or more everyday and TRYING to go to sleep. My brain has not let me have peace for a while. It's probably due to stress at work, the fact that they have yet to find a relief auditor, and the added stress of my health insurance taking their sweet ass time paying my medical bills which have so far racked up to almost five grand. I havent even gone back to the doctor's to get the rest of my results from the xrays and ultrasounds I took. It's not the smartest thing I've done I know but I figure or at least hope that if they found something really bad they would leave a message on my voice mail. I've been dodging most of the calls because most of them are from one medical billing place or another wanting some payment of some sort. Well sorry but I'm not paying all those bills. I'm waiting for my health insurance to pay at least most of it. I dont pay over a hundred smackers for my insurance for them not to pay at least half of that. I still havent been feeling well and my doctor had already told me to take it easy and take better care of myself. Also I'm supposed to have lots of rest and less stress. Huh I guess I'm not doing to well on that end am I. I'm also supposed to be going for physical therapy for my shoulder where a dislocated bone as sort of set in place. It was from a spill I took in front of many tourists in front of the Alamo. I landed almost face down like a tree going TIMBER!!! I ended up throughing out my arm. At the time I just figured that it was slightly sprained until a couple of months after when I had a hard time moving it. WHOOPS! I went to go to a chiropractor and he was suprised to fined many of my bones misaligned and that was also when I found out that I had a dislocated bone on my shoulder. I'm supposed to go regularly but I havent because I dont want to add more unpaid bills that I have to deal with all because my stupid insurance is slow paying it. Now I'm out of pain medication because I took the last one tonight because of a reeeaaally bad migrane. I havent gotten a refill in a while because I didnt want to get too used to taking it. They are the type of pain killers that can become addictive so I'm not taking that chance. I only take it when I have absolutely no choice and a Tylenol didnt do the trick. Right now I think I'm coming down with something but I absolutely refuse to let my body crash on me because I dont exactly have a choice. No one else is trained to do what I do here at work. I cant really let on to my mom, family and friends how I'm feeling because they will harp on me to either call in sick or go to the doctors. And I'm not going to the doctors until my crappy insurance pays the fracking bills.